God is Bigger.

Everyday is such a different game! Some parts of the day sting a lot more than others, and some parts just straight suck. The joy's of the day are the best part- that unnatural joy that comes unnaturally from that supernatural Source. Recently, I've been praying for more joy, especially in this tough time! It's during those times God brings me back to the basics of living- He has me come back to just talk to Him. This is the only way to get through each day.

Often, God allows crappy stuff to show up so we can see just how forgiving He is. For example, last night I ate three bowls of cereal, an apple with hummus, and a bowl of ice cream... and then some (good thing Marmite wasn't involved in this one, I would have thrown up). I wasn't even hungry. Terrible. Why did I eat? Because I had no self control to stop. haha.. oh come on! I'm human. The point is that I felt so terrible about myself because I didn't control my actions. That's when the enemy attacks hard! 'What a glutton!' 'You're rotten for eating that much while there are starving kids two hours South in Mexico!' 'Don't tell anyone what you did, they're gonna think you're an idiot..' 'That ice cream is nothin but sugar bro - you're gonna be fat in the morning!' Thankfully, HE IS the forgiving God. Does God really care how much I ate? Only if it puts a hedge in our relationship.

I'm saying all this because it's simple and it's real. These are the small aspects of life where that evil fella named Satan, aka 'father of lies', tries to separate us from our Creator, and the perfect thoughts that God has towards us. Nah.. can't let it happen. I took my problem to God, told Him I was sorry and that next time I hope to rely on Christ's strength to resist eating when there is absolutely no purpose to eating. God completely removed all guilt and self-condemnation. haha.. this is great. ok, your turn to post ridiculous things that you've hit yourself for, most likely for no reason at all.. : )

Check it: the book of Jonah, John 16:33, Psalm 139:17-18